I’ve held so much anger in for the past couple months. It’s not healthy. I didn’t want to express it verbally, so i guess i attempted to express it physically.
as my mom was, as usual, telling me i dont know how to llisten, i’m grounded for another 6 months, i’m difficult to deal with, she wish i’d just follow the rules…i realize she’s right about me. I don’t know how to follow the rules in this house. I don’t know how to make her proud. I never listen. I’m just not a good daughter. As she was telling me these things, i started to take my pen and draw on myself. very hard. it felt so painful on my skin.
i wanted to bleed. i started to draw a knife. i don’t know why. i wrote the word “die”. i don’t know why.
i’m such a dissapointment to my family. no one understands the things i go through. the worst feeling i’ve ever felt? letting my mom down.
why do i do it? i don’t really know.
Nice knife you got there
- It makes me laugh to know that you still think of me and that your life consists of hating on me. I just love it. I would tell you to fuck off, but quite honestly it amuses me how cool you think you are. - I would say something to you but it’s just a waste of time; and really I never talked shit about you. You’re just too stubborn to realize that. How important do you think you are to think we talk bout you constantly? HAHA. - Its been 2 years. Move on. Hop off. He’s taken. Don’t be a home wrecker. - Guys are always staring at you and trynna “get at you”? Oh cool story bro. That shit gets annoying when you be telling me on a daily. Get over yourself.
I hate it when someone you don ‘t know stares at you, and when you look at them they look away, but once you look away you know or have a feeling that they’re staring at you again… like wtf do you want? A cookie?
A birthday present to me, from me(: Hahahaha
Even though my birthday was like 2 weeks ago.
I really don’t get why people wear like homecoming dresses and heels to not even a fancy restaurant. Like do you know how retarded you look? Especially to the older people around you? ahahaahahaha
yeh he’s at my house haha
Today was the first time I did nothing to my hair and went out in public since like the 7th grade. Lol I know crazy right. I feel so freeeeee. Hahahahahaha
+ I look constipated. I love it.
